Bollywood actor Govinda has opened up about one of the most painful periods of his life, recalling the overwhelming grief he experienced after the death of his mother, Nirmala Devi. In a deeply personal revelation, the actor spoke about how strongly he was affected by the loss and admitted that, at one point, he felt as though his life had come to an end.
Remembering those difficult days, Govinda said he was in “tremendous pain” and struggled to accept that his mother was no longer with him. For the actor, the loss was particularly difficult because of the deep emotional bond he shared with her.
“I was in a lot of pain. I was in tremendous pain. At that point, I felt that everything was over; that was it,” Govinda recalled while speaking about the phase.
Govinda recalls incident at Narmada River
The actor went on to share a particularly emotional incident involving the Narmada River. He recalled visiting the river during the period when he was struggling with grief and said he walked deeper into the water because he believed he could somehow reunite with his mother.
“So, I was at the Narmada River, I thought I would go a little farther into the river and that I would meet my mother again. So, I went into the river,” he said.
When asked whether he was attempting to take his own life at the time, Govinda gave an honest response. “Kind of,” he said, acknowledging just how deeply grief had affected his state of mind.
‘I was too much in love with her’
Govinda explained that his actions were rooted in the extraordinary attachment he had to his mother. He described himself as being deeply connected to her and said that losing her left a void that he found extremely difficult to deal with.
“I was deeply attached to my mother. I was too much in love with her,” the actor said.
His recollection offers a rare glimpse into the personal struggles behind the public image of one of Bollywood’s most popular stars. Known for his energetic performances and comic roles, Govinda has often been seen as a larger-than-life entertainer. However, his latest revelation highlights a much more vulnerable side of his personality.
A mother-son bond that remained special
Nirmala Devi played an important role in Govinda’s life and career. The actor has spoken about his mother with affection on several occasions, often crediting her for shaping his values and supporting him through his journey in the film industry.
Her death left a lasting emotional impact on him, and his latest comments show just how profound that loss was. Govinda’s memories also underline how grief can affect people in unexpected and overwhelming ways.
By opening up about such a painful chapter, the actor has shared a side of himself that fans rarely get to see. His words serve as a reminder that even celebrities who appear confident and successful on screen can experience deeply difficult moments in their personal lives.
